God has done great things in my life. I give Him praise for what He has done. Without the events that have happened in my past I wouldn't be the person I am today. He has brought me through some difficult circumstances. With the trials I have faced, I have since realized that I can't conceal and carry hurt and bury it deep inside my heart. It is unhealthy! In the past, that is exactly how I would deal with my pain. Nobody ever knew how much of my past I was holding inside because on the outside I was putting on a good front and looked completely normal. Actually, I became numb and my mind even erased some of the events that took place.
Whether it is friends or family, we have all been hurt by other people or circumstances, right? Looking back to generations before me, I noticed that when people held their hurt inside it caused even more struggle for them. Sometimes it came out in addictions and unhealthy behaviors that continued to be passed down from generation to generation and was kept brushed underneath the rug. Without even being cognizant of it, mindsets became narrow, fears and anxiety become more prevalent, dreamers stop dreaming and people succumb to a "this is all there is" lifestyle. The good news is that there is more! God created us to thrive for Him!
Are you concealing and carrying something inside of you that needs to be dealt with?
You might be asking how can I break these chains and be set free?
"So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." - John 8:36
I challenge you to take the first steps to freedom by asking God for help by praying to Him, acknowledging the problem, surrounding your self with mature Christians in a bible believing church, seeking Godly and wise counsel, and placing yourself deep into His word.
A long time ago, I made a declaration that I would not sweep hurt underneath the rug. Instead I would be honest with myself and others.
"And if it is evil in your eyes to serve the Lord, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your fathers served in the region beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” - Joshua 24:15
You do not have to carry these burdens alone. There are people that are willing to listen. Most importantly, Jesus is listening. Don't conceal and carry! Jesus said in Matthew 11:30 (ESV), "For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” We become much lighter when we hand over our deepest hardships to the One who is able to lighten the load and get real with God. I encourage you to let Jesus pull the load for you.